Exhausting

It's one week until we make our big trip to Disney.  It's less than a week left of elementary school.  It's been horrible!  Dee is just full of attitude.  She is being sneaky.  She has that really dumb look on her face while she does not understand what you are saying. 

Yesterday, we had a big blow up because she could do her cheerleader camp for $200 if she still could fit her outfit from last year.  If she could not, then it would be $325.  Both are cheaper than last year, but I was so excited to save the $125 because I was sure she could fit it.  I told her we had to find it.  She wasn't looking and was working herself into a tantrum.  I knew then, she knew where it was.

Apparently, she "snuck" it to school one day.  Then not knowing how to get it back since I was checking her backpack, she left it there a while.  It was in the lost and found.  When she was ready to get it back, it was gone.  I am not happy.  So, she has lost her iPod to pay for the uniform.

In her tantrum, she called me "Lady" and "Dummy".  She said, "Lady, what do you want me to do?"  She also kept saying, "Why did you even adopt me"? 

I finally grabbed the camera and started filming her.  (I'll add the link later if I can ever figure out where it saved on my computer.)  She stopped her tantruming and throwing things.  She just argued.  I was apparently at the end of my rope.  When she calmed down,  told her I don't want to hear her ask why I adopted her.  She should say, "Thank you for adopting me."   I told her how her life could have been.  Maybe she would have aged out.  Who would teach her how to pay bills and do the stuff you need to do when you are grown?  Would she go to one of the best schools in the state?  Would she live in a safe neighborhood where you can leave your toys outside and it stays?  Or you can ride your bike and no one pulls a gun on you?  Maybe, but probably not if she aged out.

More and more we are talking both in therapy and home about how God plays a role in her decisions.  She asked at therapy, "Why are we talking about religion?"  I said, "Because we are religious people."  And then we talked about how God is part of our lives all of the time.  Not during devotions or at church.

Do I regret planning this trip?  Yes.  But it's not the only problem.  Earlier decisions are just now catching up with her.  She left the science out of her science fair project.  She does good with the "appearance" of a normal age-level child, but she is really a toddler and her teachers and I all seem to forget that.

Better take her to her choir performance....she is dressed like a bum!  Oh well!