No Fun!

It amazes me how much my plans can change from the time I leave work to when I pick up Dee.  Yesterday, I wondered if we should eat fast food and go to a movie.  Or maybe we should walk the dogs to a nearby fast food place, and have a game or movie night.  By the time I picked up Dee, I could only concentrate on getting away from my own child.

Today, we had a silent day.  I let Dee hear me tell my mom that I was not going to communicate with a person who speaks with such hate and disrespect in her voice.  I do mean that.  She answers back with such hatred or such evilness it's unreal.  Today when she would try to joke with me or have some of our normal banter, I'd decidedly stare at her.  Then, I'd walk away.

We had to grocery shop.  She did not ask for a single thing.  She knew better.  I told her to take her bath.  She ran the bath water.  And 45 minutes later, she was still not in it.  I had to tell her to take the bath.  Then she was purposely splashing water.  I walked in with my deadpan voice, "What are you doing?"  Then I just said, "Wash up."  It's a horrible way to live.  Talking at your kid instead of with your kid.

I will lessen up just a little tomorrow.  I want her to know this is not going to work for me.

One thing she does that puzzles me though is the picking the one thing that may not be 100% accurate to concentrate on.  I may say, "I told you that you to sit down and do your homework."  She will say, "You didn't say sit down."  And then she will repeat it over and over.  Is she smart, and just playing me?  Or she really mentally delayed and can't even hear the whole sentence?  I really don't know.  I usually end up screaming, "Forget I said sit down.  Are you doing your homework?"  It happens all of the time!

This weekend I could have used some respite so I could re-like my kid when she came home.  I didn't answer my phone all day.  I can tell friends are getting concerned.  I just napped all day long.

OK...off to bed.  I'm actually anxious to get back to work!